Capri Isidoro broke down in tears sitting on a chair at the office of a lactation consultant.
The mother of two had been struggling to breastfeed her one-month-old daughter ever since she was born, when the hospital gave the baby formula first without consulting her on her desire to breastfeed.
Now, with massive safety recall and supply disruptions causing formula shortages across the US, she also can't find the specific formula that helps with her baby's gas pains.
It is so sad. It shouldn't be like this, said Isidoro, who lives in the Baltimore suburb of Ellicott City. We need formula for our kid, and where is this formula going to come from?
As parents across the US struggle to find formula to feed their children, the pain is particularly acute among Black and Hispanic women.
Black women have historically faced obstacles to breastfeeding, including a lack of lactation support in the hospital, more pressure to formula feed and cultural roadblocks.
It's one of many inequalities for Black mothers : They are far more likely to die from pregnancy complications, and less likely to have their concerns about pain taken seriously by doctors.
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Low-income families also face a particular struggle: They buy the majority of formula in the US Experts fear small neighbourhood grocery stores that serve these vulnerable populations are not replenishing as much as the larger retail stores and that some of these families do not have the resources or means to hunt for formula.
The Centers for Disease Control and Prevention estimates that 20 per cent of Black women and 23 per cent of Hispanic women exclusively breastfeed through six months compared to 29 per cent of white women.
The overall rate stands at 26 per cent. Hospitals that encourage breastfeeding and overall lactation support are less prevalent in Black neighbourhoods, according to the CDC.
The Association of Women's Health, Obstetric and Neonatal Nurses also says Hispanic and Black women classified as low wage workers had less access to lactation support in their workplaces.
The racial disparities reach far back in America's history. The demands of slave labour prevented mothers from nursing their children, and slave owners separated mothers from their own babies to have them serve as wet nurses, or women who breastfeed other women's children.
In the 1950s, racially targeted commercials falsely advertised formula as a superior source of nutrition for infants. And studies continue to show, Black mothers are more likely to receive in-hospital formula introduction than white mothers, which happened to Isidoro after her emergency cesarean section.
Physicians say introducing formula means the baby will require fewer feedings from his mother, decreasing the milk supply as the breast is not stimulated enough to produce.
Andrea Freeman, author of the book Skimmed: Breastfeeding, Race and Injustice", said these mothers still aren't getting the support they need when it comes to having the choice of whether to breastfeed or use formula.
They also may have jobs that do not accommodate the time and space needed for breastfeeding or pumping milk, Freeman said.
Nobody's taking responsibility for the fact that they've steered families of colour toward formula for so many years and made people rely on it and taken away choice. And then when it falls apart, there's not really any recognition or accountability, Freeman said.
Breastfeeding practices are often influenced by previous generations with some studies suggesting better outcomes for mothers who were breastfed when they were babies.
Kate Bauer, an associate professor of nutritional sciences at the University of Michigan School of Public Health, said she began hearing back in February about Black and Latino families in Detroit and Grand Rapids feeling stuck after finding smaller grocery stores running out of formula.
Some were told to go to the local office of the Special Supplemental Nutrition Programme for Women, Infants, and Children, better known as WIC, the federal programme that supports low-income expectant and new mothers.
Between 50 per cent and 65 per cent of the formula in the US is bought through the programme.
Going to the WIC office is like a full day's errand for some moms, Bauer said.
She also said she fears mothers are getting desperate enough to try foods that are not recommended for babies under six months.
Yury Navas, a Salvadoran immigrant who works at a restaurant and lives in Laurel, Maryland, says she was not able to produce enough breast milk and struggled to find the right formula for her nearly three-month-old baby Jose Ismael, after others had caused vomiting, diarrhea and discomfort.
One time they drove half an hour to a store where workers told them they had the type she needed, but it was gone when they got there. Her husband goes out every night to search pharmacies around midnight.
It's so hard to find this type, she said, saying sometimes they have run out before they can secure more formula. The baby will cry and cry, so we give him rice water.
On a recent day, she was down to her last container and called an advocacy group that had told her it would try to get her some at an appointment in five days. But the group could not guarantee anything.
Some mothers have turned to social media and even befriended other locals to cast a wider net during shopping trips.
In Miami, Denise Castro, who owns a construction company, started a virtual group to support new moms during the COVID-19 pandemic that has now also started helping moms get the formula they need.
Most of the moms we have been helping are Black and Latinas, Castro said, said, adding many of them are back to work. These moms really don't have the time to visit three to four places in their lunch hour.
Castro said one of the women they have been trying to help is a Hispanic teacher who is back at work and does not have much flexibility between her job and caring for her two-month-old infant, who has been sensitive to a lot of formula brands.
Lisette Fernandez, a 34-year-old Cuban American first-time mother of twins, has relied on friends and family members to find the liquid two-ounce bottles she needs for her boy and girl.
Earlier this week, her father had gone to four different pharmacies before he was able to get her some boxes with the tiny bottles, but they run out quickly as the babies are growing.
Fernandez said she wasn't able to initiate breastfeeding, trying with an electric pump but saying she produced very little.
Her mother, who arrived in Miami from Cuba as a seven-year-old girl, had chosen not to breastfeed her children, saying she did not want to, and taken medication to suppress lactation.
Some studies have attributed changes in breastfeeding behaviour among Hispanics to assimilation, saying Latina immigrants perceive formula feeding as an American practice.
Over the last three to six weeks it has been insane, Fernandez said. I am used to everything that COVID has brought. But worrying about my children not having milk? I did not see that coming.