The scars from the nine bullets the gunman fired into Temel Atacocugu run down his left side like knotty rope. But it's the recurring mental images from that day at the mosque that he often finds hardest to cope with: The gunman's face. The puff of smoke from his gun.
The worshippers falling as they clamored to escape.
After coming so close to dying nearly five months ago, Atacocugu feels he has been "reborn."
"The most important thing is that the New Zealand community, including Muslims, they stood together against hate," Fouda says. "And we are still saying that hate is not going to divide us. We will continue to love each other."
But at the end of the day you love each other, even though you don't verbally say it. But you just telepathically know that."
"So he fought to the very last minute," she says. "And this is Hussein, in his nature. He's always the type of person who would want to see if there is danger, he'd face it, he wouldn't escape from it."