In an interview to PTI before leaving for Astana, Kazakhstan, where the World Championships will be held from May 19 to 27, the five-time gold-medallist spoke of her anxieties, preparation and goals heading into the tournament, where she would look to book a ticket for her last Olympic appearance.
The disadvantage she refers to is the absence of any Indian representation among referees and judges owing to the absence of a national federation here.
"Officially there is no representation, so that plays on the mind. Even if we perform, we might end up on the losing side because there is no official to take up our case. Sometimes we feel very scared that who will support us. The countries which have proper federations protest strongly when they feel things have not been fair but we can't, there is no support," she lamented.
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To ensure that these "disadvantages" have a minimum bearing on her results, Mary Kom said she has worked on her reflexes. The mother-of-three said it was an important area to improve as she would be dealing with younger and swifter rivals in Astana.
The veteran would need to make at least the semi-finals to book a berth to Rio, which would be her second successive and last Olympic appearance if she makes the cut.
Five world titles and one Olympic medal later, Mary Kom
said there is very little left to prove for her even though the never-ending questions on whether she can do it again do rankle.
"It is hurtful sometimes and makes me wonder whether I would qualify or not," she said.
Rather amused by the honour, Mary Kom said the animated discussions in the house left her a tad shaken when she sat to witness the proceedings after oath-taking.
"After oathtaking, I sat for few minutes, there was so much noise all around and I was wondering what is happening. May be when I sit there for a few more times, I would get used to it. I hope nobody shouts at me," she laughed.
But she ruled out foraying into professional boxing, which has made rapid strides in India after Vijender Singh's sensational run in the circuit.
"Pro boxing is very diffcult. It's not an option for me. In India, the quality of competition is not there for me to take the plunge," she said.