Zohra Segal’s book is a candid and fascinating tale.
Truthfully speaking,” writes the veteran actress Zohra Segal towards the end of her memoir Close-Up, “I could have done much, much more.” “I had some talent,” she continues, “and was given the opportunity that many women of my generation were denied. What did I do with it? … I was too lazy to take on the responsibility of teaching or directing... but I did get a little name, a great deal of experience and unlimited enjoyment in my work.”
These typically candid words are a pointer to what makes Close-Up such a likeable book even when it meanders or tends towards stasis. If Segal had been a different sort of personality — more affected, or less pragmatic — this could have been an ego project. As it is, the impatient reader will have to overcome a few barriers before sinking into it, for this is neither the story of a woman who became a towering figure in her field nor a heroic tale about someone who overcame immense odds to carve a small niche for herself. However, it’s something in between, and a reminder that we can learn much from the lives of those who brush against greatness without quite achieving it.
Zohra Begum was born in 1912 to a life of privilege, being descended from nawabs and chieftains, and her quiet pride in her lineage comes through in a brief account of the family history. By the time she tells us that she went to Lahore’s exclusive Queen Mary’s College, founded for the “Aristocratic Ladies of Northern India”, a certain pattern has been established. The reader should understand that this is a young lady from a wealthy and liberal-minded family. We’re not expected to blink our eyes in surprise when she voices a desire (in 1929!) to be the first Indian girl pilot, then jettisons the idea and sets off on a long car trip to Europe (more accurately to Egypt, from where she takes the boat) in the company of an uncle and a mechanic — stopping at Quetta, Tehran, Beirut, Jerusalem and Cairo along the way; staying at the home of the religious head, the Mufti, in Baghdad; and eventually joining a dance school in Dresden, Germany.
The relentless adventure of her early life continues when she returns to India and joins the dance academy of the legendary Uday Shankar, eventually getting married to a much younger colleague (and a Hindu at that), Kameshwar Segal. The book’s midsection — and one of its more engaging chunks — is about her 16-year involvement with Prithvi Theatres, where she gained the acting experience that would serve her well when she moved to England in the early 1960s for more varied theatrical trysts.
The jacket flap tells us that Close-Up is “a ringside view” of Segal’s life on stage and screen in India and England, but it’s equally true that Segal herself had a ringside view of some notable cultural movements of her time. Ultimately this memoir’s enduring value will depend not on what it reveals about its author’s personal history but on its glimpses of the times she lived through — the people, places and events that intersected her life. In the Prithvi Theatres section, for instance, Segal wisely gives herself a supporting role, electing to describe the production of some of the group’s seminal plays and the dedication of its founder Prithviraj Kapoor.
Which is not to suggest that Segal herself lacks interest as a personality. Close-Up is never more engaging than when she takes a break from chronicling events and throws in a few wry remarks, or expresses her vulnerability following her husband’s suicide in 1959, or sets down transcripts of the letters she wrote to her beloved uncle Memphis from Germany. In the section about her stay in London in the 1960s, she devotes a full page to a listing of the high-profile theatrical productions she saw (featuring Laurence Olivier, Vanessa Redgrave, Peter O’Toole and others), but just when one is tempted to accuse her of name-dropping (or tedium) she relates a sweet anecdote about having to swallow her pride when she worked as a dresser at the Old Vic:
“Accepting tips the first time was a humiliating experience. With difficulty I put on a smiling face, but I let myself go in a flood of tears as soon as I reached home. All the Nawabs of Rampur and Najibabad must have turned in their graves that night! And yet, later, I began to look forward to the extra odd pound per week.”
At other times, she mulls about whether her children think of her as a “useless appendage”, frankly proclaims her agnosticism — even at an age when many people turn to religion for comfort — and says that she’d prefer that her ashes be flushed down the toilet after her cremation rather than morbidly kept in an urn inside the house.
People who live to be as old as Segal sometimes suffer from poor short-term memory: their recollection of events that took place decades ago can be astonishingly sharp, but they can find it harder to bring more recent years into clear focus. Perhaps it’s a version of diminishing returns, with the newer memories blurring into one another as the brain refuses to over-exert itself. Whatever the case, the last few pages of Close-Up rush past, tapering away as the early 1990s approach. Segal winds up her story hurriedly, and consequently there is nothing about her late career in mainstream Hindi cinema, working with Amitabh Bachchan, Shah Rukh Khan and others in such films as Kal Ho Naa Ho and Cheeni Kum. Or about her appearances in British television and films like Gurinder Chadha’s Bhaji on the Beach, which fixed her in the public imagination as the feisty, lovable old lady. (Watching her briefly enliven proceedings in the otherwise terrible Aishwarya Rai-starrer The Mistress of Spices, the phrase “Old Spice” leaps irresistibly to mind.)
All this is relegated to a listing at the book’s end, which creates a sense of incompleteness, but there’s also something endearing about it. It’s as though a spry great-grandmother, after hours spent talking animatedly about her life, suddenly paused to catch her breath, then waved you away because she’s been going on for much too long and really must rest now; don’t you know how old she is?
