In a recent interview with Oprah Winfrey, the 24-year-old singer said Chris was her first love and they have maintained a close friendship ever since the restraining order was dropped, reported Aceshowbiz.
"I still love him. I think he was the love of my life. He was my first love and I see that he loved me the same way," said Rihanna.
"We have maintained a very close friendship ever since the restraining order was dropped... We're very, very close friends. We built a trust again and that's it. We love each other and we probably always will, and that's not anything that we're going to try to change," she added.
Rihanna admitted it was hard for her to see Chris again because she still had feelings for him. "It's awkward because I still love him... My stomach drops and I have to maintain this poker face and not let it get to the outer part of me. I have to maintain that and suppress it," she said.
Despite what happened between them, Rihanna still cared for him. "I truly love him - the main thing for me is he's at peace. I'm not at peace if he's not happy or he's still lonely. I care. It actually matters that he finds that peace," she explained and cried during the interview.
Reconciling with her own father who had been abusive with her mother helped her forgive Chris. "I thought I hated Chris and I realized it was love that was tarnished. It looked like hate because it was ugly, it was angry, it was inflamed, it was tainted and I realized that what it was is," she said.
"And the minute I let go of that, I started living again," she said.
